Emilie Kiser speaks out about three-year-old son Trigg's drowning in first interview since accident
Rhianna Benson
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Emilie Kiser has given her first interview since the death of her three-year-old son Trigg.
The Arizona influencer appeared on Jay Shetty's On Purpose podcast this week (16 Jun), where she reflected on the events of the last year, after May marked a year since her eldest son tragically passed away.
Trigg drowned in the pool of his Chandler family home on 18 May. According to a police report, he'd been home with his father, Brady Kiser, and the couple's newborn son, Theodore, when he tripped on an inflatable and fell into the water.
Brady had been distracted by his youngest when he temporarily lost sight of Trigg, while Emilie, who'd been five weeks postpartum, had been enjoying dinner with friends nearby.
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The youngster was quickly rushed to the hospital after being pulled from the pool, where he was treated for six days before passing away.
Emilie, 27, a wellness and parenting influencer, took a break from social media for several months in the wake of the heartbreaking incident as police underwent a full investigation.
She also sought to conceal records on Trigg's passing, making a slow return to Instagram in September.
The online star wouldn't speak publicly about the incident until this week, however, when she told Shetty: "When you lose your child, you really don't care about anything else besides doing your best to get through it.
"And there's not even a through it. You don't get through it."
On the show, Emilie also reflected on the moment she received a call from Brady, ten minutes into her meal, who told her Trigg had stopped breathing.
"You can't even describe that feeling of when your child passes away from a preventable accident, a preventable tragedy," she claimed. "All that’s going through your mind is, 'Where did I go wrong? Where did we go wrong? How did this happen? Why did this happen?'
"Hindsight is playing in your head 24/7."
Her heartache hadn't been helped by a 'frenzy' of public attention, she added, much of which allegedly came from critics who accused her and Brady of being neglectful parents.
"It was crazy, but I was just so uninvolved in that at the time that it wasn't until after he had passed away that I think I really realised how big it was and how many people were talking about what had happened to him," Emilie continued.
Asked how she's been able to grieve her son, the mother-of-two revealed she'd undergone both animal and medical professional therapy.
"Everything is going to coexist with the grief," Emilie explained. "You could feel joy and feel so much sadness at the exact same time. You can feel support while also feeling guilty. You can feel sad while also feeling reminiscent on the memories.
"So many feelings coexist, and that is forever."
She went on to emphasise: "I cannot stress enough that when you're going through child loss, or you're going through loss in general, you're really just living minute by minute."