Charlotte Crosby has opened up about what went down after she quit Geordie Shore forever and stormed out of filming.
The 33-year-old, who welcomed a beautiful baby girl called Alba Jean with her boyfriend Jake Ankers last year, has explained more about her decision to leave the show after having starred on it since 2011.
Speaking on her Always On podcast, Charlotte revealed just how 'anxious' she was in the run-up to making the difficult decision and what exactly prompted it. Have a listen:
For many of us who grew up religiously watching Geordie Shore and the rag-tag bunch get up to all sorts - it'll come as a massive shock that one of the programme's beloved fan favourites has finally departed.
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Signalling an end to an era of British reality television as we know it, Charlotte revealed she left Cyprus - where the cast were shooting - after just two days of filming.
The mum-of-one said: "There was a silly argument, over a high chair of all things, that escalated. And I just left."
Going into some more detail about the aftermath of the argument, Charlotte continued: "I just needed to get out of that environment.
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"I'd never raised my voice in front of Alba ever, and I did in this argument, and I was like, 'Oh God, I feel absolutely terrible.' I've never gotten that angry and wound up."
Clearly emotional recalling the situation, the reality TV star then began to break down in tears as she explained: "As a mam, you feel so guilty.
"I was riddled with guilt. I felt anxious, I felt guilty. I think in the weeks I came out of the show I just felt awful. I was so worried. Had I made a bad decision going in there with my family?"
Charlotte added that the whole thing filled her with 'dread' before she touched upon just why she won't be returning to Geordie Shore ever again.
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"For that reason," she began. "I definitely don't think I could be involved going forward again, which is so sad."
She made sure to inform her fans that the decision wasn't down to a 'particular person' before adding: "It's not because I won't go back because I don't want to be with them. It's really not.
"It's just because, like oh my god, how I felt after and how I felt during and how I felt hearing stories about what going on afterwards - it was so awful."
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Charlotte confessed: "I've never that sad and paranoid and anxious - ever."
Topics: TV And Film, Celebrity, Parenting
Rhiannon Ingle