Geordie Shore star Charlotte Crosby says she’s suffered another silent miscarriage in emotional post

Warning: This article contains discussion of baby loss which some readers may find distressing.

Charlotte Crosby has revealed that she’s suffered another silent miscarriage just five months after her last devastating loss.

The former Geordie Shore star, who shares two daughters, Alba and Pixi, with her fiancé Jake Ankers, took to Instagram on Friday (16 October) to share the heartbreaking news.

Sharing a picture of her pregnancy tests, she wrote: "Last month, we got the news we’d been hoping for. We found out we were pregnant. It’s no secret that we’ve been trying to grow our family, so you can imagine the overwhelming happiness we felt when we saw the positive test.

“There are no words to describe how happy we were. Being a mother is, without a doubt, the greatest gift life has ever given me.

Charlotte continued: “Nothing brings me more happiness than being a mam, and so the thought of growing our family filled Jake and I with so much happiness and excitement."

She added: “Especially after experiencing a silent miscarriage earlier this year, this pregnancy came with a lot of mixed emotions and nerves. It was a combination of happiness and fear at the same time.

“I continued testing, and the excitement I felt when the weeks kept going up was an indescribable feeling.”

In the slideshow, she then shared a clip from the hospital and continued: “This was our six weeks five days! The moment we had been waiting for… that little heartbeat.”

The reality TV star said she felt more 'relaxed' because they had reached the six-week mark and she and she was excited to be a 'family of five'.

She explained: “We didn’t reach that stage in our last pregnancy, so that scan felt like a huge reassurance, and we both relaxed a little. We started really envisioning life as a family of 5… a future with 3 kids!

“We planned how we would tell the girls, and even started thinking about names. The definition of cloud 9.

“The nerves were still there deep down, as they are with every pregnancy…and to be honest those nerves never go! Even when your baby is in your arms!

“But we kept ourselves busy between the 6 and 8-week scans, filling our days with lots of fun adventures with the girls. Jake was our rock, as always. He held the fort, looked after us all, and filled the house with laughter and fun.”

However, at their eight-week scan, tragically, the couple's 'world came crashing down, as they got the news they'd 'been petrified of all along'.

Alongside an emotional video of herself crying, Charlotte wrote: “‘I’m so sorry, the baby’s heart has stopped beating’. It felt like someone had ripped our hearts out of our chests. We lost another baby, another silent miscarriage.”

She then shared a photo of her daughters and penned: "We are incredibly lucky, and I can’t even explain how tight I’ve held these girls this last week! Having them both will always be the greatest blessing we have ever received. You feel that even harder after experiencing a loss like this! I love you both so much. My precious girls! Seeing them as big sisters was something me and Jake were made up about. Believe me they’d be the BEST most caring big sisters."

Charlotte added: "Last night was The Wave of Light, a global event held to mark the end of Baby Loss Awareness Week. And last night, everything just felt so heavy. The sadness felt heavy. The heartbreak felt heavy.

"I realised that maybe I haven’t really allowed myself to process everything that’s happened. I’ve kept myself busy, stayed strong and tried to be as present as possible for the girls. It’s been Alba’s birthday, and I’ve wanted to make sure her days have been filled with nothing but happiness and love.

"As crazy as this sounds for the last 16 years I’ve shared my whole life with my followers, putting my feelings into words on here helps me make sense of it all. Having somewhere to share my emotions helps me from keeping them bottled up."

She concluded: "I’m not sure where we go from here, and the future feels a little uncertain. We would absolutely love to grow our family however the fear of feeling this heartbreak again is terrifying.

"I wanted to share this because this is my life, and this is our story.

"Sometimes sharing the hardest parts helps me carry them a little more easily. And if you’re going through something similar, you’re not alone."

In May, Charlotte revealed that she had fallen pregnant with her third child earlier this year but had devastatingly lost the baby.

During an interview on This Morning, she said: “So the doctor confirmed that it wasn’t an active pregnancy. I’d silently miscarried, which is when the body just doesn’t realise it’s even had a miscarriage yet.”

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