Amanda Holden Celebrates Late Son Theo's Birthday Ten Years After He Was Stillborn
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Amanda Holden has paid tribute to her late son Theo, who was sadly stillborn in 2011.
Taking to her Instagram account on Monday, Amanda marked the tenth anniversary with an emotional tribute featuring a touching image of his footprints.
The caption reads: "#Theo... our gorgeous little boy, you would have been 10 years old today... not a day goes by without thinking of you."
Amanda's friends and fans sent lots of lovely messages in her Instagram comments, with Charlotte Hawkins writing: "So heartbreaking for you, sending love."
Myleene Klass added: "Oh Mandy. Thinking of you and Theo."
In July, Amanda reflected on the experience and the moment she was told there was no heartbeat on the BBC's Dear NHS Superstars special.
She shared: "I remember waking up and thinking I hadn't felt my baby kick for most of the night which was unusual because he was so active.
"I tried all the things they tell you to do, but he wasn't moving. But I didn't panic."
Amanda then travelled to Middlesex Hospital where she was seen by midwife and close friend, Jackie. "Luckily for us, an obstetrician was coming past and Jackie said to the obstetrician, 'Please can you go in, I can't hear the patient's baby's heartbeat', and then I heard this guttural screaming.
"It was the most bizarre thing that's ever happened to me because it was me. I didn't know I was doing it. I had no control over myself, I thought it was another person making the noise.
"All these women were holding me, calming me down, I forgot entirely that I'd have to get the baby out and I'd have to give birth for our son."
Amanda decided to have a C-section because she couldn't go through with labour.
She explained: "The C-section was beyond horrific because at the end a little baby who has nothing wrong with him apart from being asleep is going to come out.
"I kept saying, 'I can't hold a dead baby', I was absolutely terrified. Just as the baby was going to come out my husband Chris had to leave the room, he couldn't bear it."
"Theo was put into a little room so his body could be preserved and we could go and see him as much or as little as we wanted.
"Jackie talked to me about the keepsakes we could have, to remind ourselves of Theo forever. We got his footprints and a little bit of his hair and the blanket he was born in."
For support and advice on stillbirth, visit Kicks Count here.