Molly-Mae Hague has said she’s felt ‘overwhelmed’ every day since daughter Bambi was born earlier this year, having shared a teary candid new vlog with fans about the challenges of motherhood.
After Molly-Mae, 23, welcomed Bambi - her first child with boyfriend Tommy Fury - in January, she opened out about finding the early stages of parenthood difficult, saying she hadn’t been finding it ‘particularly easy’.
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“Newborn life is absolutely no joke!" she said in an Instagram post a few weeks after her daughter was born.
Hague also said she had been 'winging [her] way through each day', over the course of a 'super challenging' six weeks.
Now the former Love Island star has shared another update with her followers, having thanked them for their ‘endless love and support’ in a brand new YouTube video titled ‘The Truth’.
In the clip, she spoke about how she’d been desperate to get back into making vlogs on the platform, but felt like her ‘jumbled’ brain meant nothing seemed to be making any sense.
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“I just feel like there is so much to say and there is so much to discuss and talk about, that I feel like I literally don’t even know where to start,” Molly-Mae began.
She said she had been struggling to film the video two hours, having originally planned to do a 30-40 minute Q&A for fans.
“I don’t feel like I’m being myself,” Molly-Mae explained, before going on: “I feel like I’m questioning everything I’m saying, I’m thinking, ‘Oh my God, what are people going to think if I say that?’ because I’m trying to be so transparent and so real about the last two months of my life - but I’m also really scared to do that.”
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Fighting back tears, she continued: “I’ve just been trying to talk, and nothing is coming out, I feel like what I’m saying isn’t making sense and my brain is jumbled and my brain just is not my brain anymore. And I just don’t feel myself, you know?
“And it’s not like I need more time to come back, because I do feel ready to come back. And I want more than anything to come back to YouTube - it's what I want more than anything, I want to bring you guys along this life with me so much.”
Molly-Mae wondered if she had maybe ‘left it too long’ as by the time she came to vlog she had so much to fill people in on that she didn’t know where to begin.
“I just feel overwhelmed,” she said, having a little cry to the camera.
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Despite the challenges, Molly-Mae said she did feel parenting had come easily to her.
“I don’t want to sound big-headed, but I think I’m a really good mum,” she said as she began to respond to questions.
“And I think it has come so naturally to me to become Bambi’s mum - I am good at it and I’m proud of the mum I am to her.”
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She continued: "I would say that becoming a mum is the best thing that’s ever happened to me, but it’s also the hardest thing that’s happened to me - like, wholeheartedly, I have found it really, really hard.
"The one word to describe the last two months would be ‘overwhelming’, I have been so overwhelmed, like every single day. You almost can’t believe the 360 that your life has taken."
Many viewers praised Molly-Mae for being so open and honest about her journey, while others said the brain fog was totally natural and something they had faced themselves.
One commented: “This is so refreshing to watch. Although I’m sure EXTREMELY hard to put such vulnerability online, hearing someone say things that I’ve personally felt and is so raw & real is so reassuring. Bambi is so lucky to have such a wonderful, inspiring mummy. I’ve got two little boys and both situations were completely different post-partum but it’s so nice to finally see some normality online. Thank you.”
Someone else said: “Aw Molly it’s ok!!! You don’t owe us anything. You went through a life changing event, you’re sleep deprived, your hormones are changing like crazy, you have a new life to take care of. Don’t feel like you need to rush into creating content, we’re doing just fine!”
A third wrote: “The brain feeling scrambled is soooo normal, my son is 11 months and I felt and still feel exactly the same. You’re an amazing mum and we can all see it. So proud of you.”
Topics: Molly Mae Hague, Parenting, Celebrity
Jess Hardiman