Cara Delevingne has revealed that she’s wanted to be a mother since she was 16-years-old after witnessing her mother’s battle with heroin addiction.
The Carnival Row star has had her own issues with alcohol and prolonged substance abuse, even checking in to a rehab facility in 2022.
However, the 30-year-old is now looking to the future as she recovers and sets long-term goals – something she opened up about recently in a candid interview.
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This comes after disturbing pictures of the supermodel emerged last year, with her looking confused and bedraggled at Los Angeles airport.
Shortly after this, her close friend Margot Robbie was pictured leaving Delevigne's home in tears and fans became increasingly concerned for her health.
While she’s since made a recovery and gone on to host her BBC series, Planet Sex, the supermodel admitted to Vogue that her problems stemmed from her mother’s addiction.
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Delevingne’s mother Pandora, who is now 63, had been a socialite and a Selfridges personal shopper when the supermodel was born during the early 1990s.
Pandora sadly struggled with heroin addiction throughout Delevingne's childhood, as well as having bipolar disorder, and this severely impacted the Suicide Squad star.
“I was happy as a kid for sure, but I think when I grew up, I looked back [at her mother's addiction] and realized, that's not normal," she said to Vogue.
"And then as a teenager, it just all came plummeting down” she added, saying that confronting this caused her own issues.
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“That’s also when I started drinking and partying. There was this need to escape and change my reality as I was hit with just huge questions: What am I doing here? Who am I trying to be?”
She also added how the paparazzi photos of herself were a source of overwhelming shame and embarrassment, saying: "It’s heartbreaking because I thought I was having fun, but at some point it was like, 'Okay, I don’t look well'.
"You know, sometimes you need a reality check, so in a way those pictures were something to be grateful for.”
While Delevingne may have dreamed of having a family of her own from a young age, she admits that she wasn’t stable enough for motherhood.
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“I’ve wanted a kid since I was 16. I want babies so bad,” she candidly admitted, adding: “Back then I would not have been ready, of course - I just wanted to replace the need to look after my mom with a kid of my own.”
It’s not the first time the supermodel has spoken about how much her childhood affected her.
During a previous interview with Harper’s Bazaar, she told the magazine that her childhood was ‘very stressful’ and that there was 'quite a lot of chaos.'
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She said: “Everyone has something they go through with their family. My life, I feel, was very stressful because there was quite a lot of chaos - not being sure if people were OK or not."
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