Topics: Towie, Celebrity, Reality TV, UK News, Real Life
The ex-girlfriend of late The Only Way Is Essex star Jake Hall claims she's been left 'haunted' by one aspect of his sudden death.
Missé Beqiri, who dated the reality TV star between 2016 and 2021, appeared on Paul Brunson's hit We Need To Talk podcast this week (29 Jun), where she reflected on their on-off relationship and their eventual split.
Hall tragically died while on holiday in Santa Margalida, Mallorca, back in May.
A spokesperson at the Foreign, Commonwealth & Development Office (FCDO) confirmed the 35-year-old's passing on 7 May, telling Tyla in a statement: "We are supporting the family of a British man who has died in Spain and are in contact with the local authorities."
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Investigators later confirmed that the ITVBe star had sustained fatal head wounds during the incident, which are believed to have been caused by shards of death after Hall fell through a glass door.
A representative of Beqiri, with whom Hall shared his eight-year-old daughter, River, told Tyla following the tragedy: "At this time, Misse’s focus is on supporting and protecting their child as they come to terms with this devastating loss.
"The family are asking for privacy, compassion and respect while they grieve privately."
This week, however, she has discussed Hall's passing with the public for the very first time.
Speaking to Brunson, the Swedish model revealed Hall - who appeared on TOWIE between seasons 14 and 17 - proposed to her twice during the course of their romance, and questioned whether her later ending the relationship may have had a part to play in his death.
"I never thought we were actually going to break up because we were very, very much in love," Beqiri confessed. "And like, everyone around us knew, like, it was some crazy love we had.
"It was really high and really low. We had some really good moments, but we also had some very dark moments together. I think, just like, from my experience of life, growing up, childhood, everything coming into one, and he's experiencing his life - it was fire with fire, you know.
"I think there was a lot of times that things were said and done that purposely wasn't meant to be said and done. We were both growing and dealing. We were dealing with our own things, too, at the same time."
She added: "So for me, you know, he was a big love of my life. He will forever be. We share River together."
"It is haunting me now. I'm going to be honest with you - that I'm like, would this have ever happened if I didn't leave?"
Beqiri also asked: "Like, could I have stopped this to happen?"
During the same discussion, the mother-of-one discussed the aftermath of Hall's passing and its impact on their daughter.
"I think Jake just wanted to be remembered for everything good that he's done, you know," Beqiri reflected. "And to be remembered to be an amazing father, how much he loved people, how much he connected people, how much he worked so hard.
"He really tried so hard to fight this voice that was always talking over him. All I can think about is, he's at peace now. He's resting, you know."
She claimed: "I just wish it never happened. I don't think I can ever get over it. It just hurts so bad to lose him."
