Celebrity Big Brother star Ashley James has admitted that she once 'regretted' becoming a mum after giving birth to her first child in January 2021.
The former Made in Chelsea actor is expecting her second child with boyfriend Tommy Andrews, but she admits having problems when she welcomed her first.
She confessed that she once found parenting 'boring' and thought that she had 'ruined her life' after giving birth to her son Alfie.
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James took to her Instagram story recently during a trip to the Maldives, where she opened up about her relationship with her son.
She said that spending long periods with Alfie would load her with dread and wanting her old life back.
But in a lovely snap of her and her son, the star made it clear she loves spending time with Alfie.
She said: "Can I say something that's probably a bit controversial but maybe lots of people feel this way?
"I'm starting to really enjoy this little dude's company. I've always loved him and been a really good and attentive mum. But I found a lot of the baby / parenting stuff quite boring.
"I'd dread being on my own with him for long periods. I'd find myself just wishing I had my old life back or felt like I was having to pretend to enjoy motherhood when I really really didn't enjoy most of it.
"I mean the newborn days were great as it was just a lot of sitting around watching films with my boobs out.
"But entertaining him from around 6 months I just found a bit dull. Like I was having to pretend to be into baby stuff."
She continued: "But now I find him really fun to be around. It feels like we are interacting. I love hanging with him: reading, playing, or just following him around.
"It's nice watching him experience the world and learn things. It feels more natural and less like a chore.
"He's funny and kind and pretty awesome and I don't mind not doing the old stuff."
James received many comments from fans who described her feelings as 'normal', while they also shared their difficulties in becoming a mum for the first time.
James later spoke about welcoming her baby girl into the world, saying she is 'prepared for chaos'.
She said: "Even being out with the baby girl will for sure make such a difference and will no doubt make me feel much less lost in it all.
"But also the first time I was like - it can't be so hard can it?
"My life won't change that much will it? Whereas this time I'm just prepared for chaos in the knowledge it's temporary."
Callum Jones