Erik Menendez reveals what he'd say to his mum 35 years after murdering her

Ahead of his controversial court hearing next month, convicted killer Erik Menendez has lifted the lid on what he'd like to say to the mother he violently murdered out of 'self defence' back in 1989.

He and his older brother Lyle were sentenced five years later to life in prison without the possibility of parole, after also killing their father José Menendez with a close-range shotgun that very same night.

The crimes of the Menendez brothers have ceaselessly hit headlines in recent months, as more and more followers of the case join an appeal for their release.

Many of those who hadn't previously caught wind of the double murders learned of their story through director Ryan Murphy's latest addition to the Monsters crime-drama series, which saw the killings and televised court case recreated.

The real trial saw both Lyle and Erik break down in tears when revealing the reasoning behind the murders, claiming to have been subjected to years of sexual and emotional abuse at the hands of their father, José, while their mother, Mary Louise 'Kitty', allegedly knew and did nothing.

The star-studded, nine-part Netflix series faced mass backlash over apparent 'inaccuracies', and even the real Erik Menendez condemned Netflix producers over their 'vile' portrayal of his brother, Lyle.

When the streaming service announced the release of a follow-up documentary, told from the perspectives of the brothers from behind bars, spectators were all ears.

The Menendez brothers murdered their parents in 1989 (Los Angeles Times/Contributor)

And among the countless bombshell secrets and shock admissions that the pair made in the feature-length film is one made by Erik about what he'd like to tell his mother.

He told listeners from behind bars: "One of the misconceptions is that I did not love my father or love my mother.

"That is the farthest thing from the truth. I miss my mother tremendously."

Erik, now 53, went on to admit what he wishes he could tell his mother.

"I wish that I could go back and talk to her and give her a hug and tell her I love her and I wanted her to love me and be happy with me and be happy that I was her son and feel that joy and that connection.

"And I just want that."

He went on to add, however, that he couldn't feel more different about his father.

"To me as a boy, he was more than just a man," Erik continued.

"He was like the modern version of an ancient Greek god.

Erik reflected on his relationship with his parents (ABC)

"He was different than any man I had ever met. And I simply idolized him. I wanted to be like him. But he was rarely a dad."

Recalling his and Lyle's harrowing relationship with their father, he went on to claim: "He loved us. But he believed that love needed to be earned.

"So, to be loved by him, we had to be worthy of that love, and often that meant going through pain."

A hearing in November will determine whether or not the brothers could possibly be retried in light of two new pieces of evidence,