Ashley Cain Opens Up About Agony Of Planning Azaylia's Funeral Saying It's 'Enough To Bring Me To My Knees'
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The Ex on the Beach star and his girlfriend Safiyya Vorajee lost eight-month-old Azaylia last month following a gruelling battle with a rare form of leukaemia.
Both Ashley and Safiyya took to Instagram on Thursday to share their grief as they make funeral plans.
Ashley's heartbreaking post reads: "I always dreaded the first time I'd have to plan a funeral. But I never, ever thought it would be my child's funeral.
"Nothing could ever have prepared me for this. Some days it breaks me and I can't even bare to do it.
"I always thought I was tough, but making decisions on how I'm going to bury my baby is enough to bring me to my knees every single time."
He adds: "It's hard to make sense of anything right now, especially why did it have to happen this way!"
Safiyya said she was wearing rainbow pyjamas in tribute to her daughter and revealed to her followers that her days now feel "so empty" after Azaylia passed away.
"My days are so empty without you when ever I think of you I ache from head to toe as I miss you so much. I get the biggest lump in my throat and I just want to fall to my knees n cry [sic]."
She ended with: "But then I think what would Azaylia do (she would [be] brave, so I hear in my head mummy stay strong be brave just like me)".
Azaylia captured the hearts of the public as she bravely fought against the rare blood cancer. In April prior to her passing away a Clap For Azaylia was launched as a way to honour the little one and to show support for Ashley and Safiyya. Stars including Abbey Clancy and Peter Crouch, Stacey Solomon, Charlotte Dawson and Mrs Hinch all took part.
Ashley had previously promised he would "be strong" for his daughter, as he wanted her to "see him smiling" before she passed.
Our thoughts are with Ashley and Safiyya right now.