Joey Essex Breaks Down As He Opens Up About Mother's Suicide
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In the new BBC documentary, Grief And Me, Joey Essex has spoken candidly about how his mother's suicide affected his relationships.
The Only Way Is Essex star has previously spoken about his mother's death at the age of ten, but this documentary aimed to take a more in-depth look at how the loss had impacted him.
During the episode, Joey said: "I just don't believe it. I think to myself, 'If she loved me that much why would she leave me'. I think I'll always ask myself, 'Why?'".
The show explored how Joey approached relationships, often starting them with no intention or hope for them ever progressing or pushing people away.
Joey talks through his emotions with a therapist on camera. The therapist told him: "There's some terrible pain in you that you feel you're too much for anybody."
When Joey agrees that this is the problem he was facing, viewers saw Joey start to become tearful.
Joey also says that he wants to change this pattern of behaviour, so that he can actually "accept love".
At the moment that Joey says that his mum "loved me, she left me", he finds himself struggling to keep himself composed, and bends over as more tears start to come down.
When Joey Essex talked about his mother's suicide on Channel 4's Celebrity SAS: Who Dares Wins, he said: "I had to deal with a lot of s**t. My mum committed suicide when I was ten which was difficult."
He then said: "I know my mum loved me. But it has given me trust issues. One day she was there one day she was gone."
The 30-year-old even explained how tricky it was for him to even use the word "mum" until just a few years ago.
Viewers were incredibly moved by Joey's experience and how he is confronting the consequences of his grief.
One social media user said: "Joey Essex's documentary both broke and warmed my heart, once again proving how important prioritising your mental health is and how much it can change your day to day life".
We're sending all of our love to Joey for sharing his experience in this documentary.
Joey Essex: Grief and Me is still available to watch on BBC iPlayer.
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