Sarah Harding has spoken candidly about her ongoing cancer battle, adding she feels "strangely comforted" by knowing she will "probably" die before her mother, Marie.
The 39-year-old announced to her fans that she had been diagnosed with breast cancer in August last year, and has since explained the cancer has now spread to other parts of her body.
But Sarah, who has been told by doctors that her Christmas in 2020 "was probably her last", has explained she's found comfort in knowing she may die before her mother Marie, who is in her late 70s.
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In her new book Hear Me Out, Sarah wrote: "Mum is in her late seventies now and she has become everything to me through this illness, especially since I've been staying with her.
"I know how hard this is on her too. I often worry about her, especially as she's gotten older. I can't bear the thought of anything happening to her.
"In a strange way it's comforting to know that I will probably leave this world before she does; at least then I won't have to go through the pain of losing her."
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She added: "The truth is, I can't live without her now, she cares for me and helps me because, at times, I am too weak to help myself."
Accepting that her recovery may be unlikely, Sarah also explains in her book that she has also started planning her funeral.
"It's strange, I keep thinking about funerals at the moment. It might sound morbid, but it's hard not to at this stage: cemeteries, plots, burials, what kind of send-off I'd like and how it would all go. It's all there front and centre in my mind," she penned.
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"I've also thought about an epitaph for my grave. I'm thinking 'FFS' might be a good one. It's probably been my most used phrase throughout this, with one crappy event following another. 'For f**k's sake!'
"I think what I'd really like to do is to see everyone - all my friends, all together. One last time. Then I'd throw a great big f**k-off party as a way to say thank you and goodbye. Wouldn't that be amazing?"
Hear Me Out is available to buy from all good bookstores.
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